culpa

... if I should die

and my soul becomes lost

then I know it's

nobody's fault but mine

growth

...que o Natal seja uma época de crescimento!

senhora da noite

"...

E o sono virginal das claras fontes

Na própria voz das águas se afogou

...

E têm rochedos mesmo à flor do rosto

E têm rochedos íntimos e fundos

...

E a indecisão,

Num caótico gesto de loucura,

Lança o desmaio, a síncope, a aflição
Na paisagem, e as cousas desfigura. 

..."
T.P. 

loving

"Don't be sorry your darkness is gone...

i'll carry it for you"

uma bela explicação

I suffer from a tumor
here inside my chest
I gotta lay to rest
a strange kind of humor
the grin on your face
soon leaves without a trace
now I'm out of love
no one can fill this heart of mine
I ran out of love now
I'm out of

put an end to yourself
and you'll be closer
closer

the world is
but a tumor
the cold light of day
won't turn the night away
humanity's a rumor
unless my soul reacts
the whole world my collapse
now I'm out of love
no one can heal this heart of mine
I've run out of love
now I'm out of

one last goodbye

How I needed you 

How I grieve now you're gone 

In my dreams I see you 

I awake so alone 

I know you didn't want to leave 

Your heart yearned to stay 

But the strength I always loved in you 

Finally gave way 

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way 

Somehow I knew you could never, never stay 

And in the early morning light 

After a silent peaceful night 

You took my heart away 

And my being 

In my dreams I can see you 

I can tell you how I feel 

In my dreams I can hold you 

And it feels so real 

I still feel the pain 

I still feel your love 

I still feel the pain 

I still feel your love 

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay 

And somehow I knew you would leave me 

And in the early morning light 

After a silent peaceful night 

You took my heart away 

Oh I wish, I wish you could have stayed

only a few of us... only a few...

“We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.”

Oscar Wilde

universo... universo...

Universo, universo...
estou sem paciência para ti!

 e se quem tem alguma coisa contra mim o dissesse de uma vez?


... when I was
Stabbed in the back and its all coming
Back and I feel that pain again
 

woman

Hoje estamos assim...

I SIT and look out

I SIT and look out upon all the sorrows of the world, and upon all oppression and shame;

I hear secret convulsive sobs from young men, at anguish with themselves, remorseful after deeds done;

I see, in low life, the mother misused by her children, dying, neglected, gaunt, desperate;

I see the wife misused by her husband—I see the treacherous seducer of young women;

I mark the ranklings of jealousy and unrequited love, attempted to be hid—I see these sights on the earth;  

I see the workings of battle, pestilence, tyranny—I see martyrs and prisoners;

I observe a famine at sea—I observe the sailors casting lots who shall be kill’d, to preserve the lives of the rest;

I observe the slights and degradations cast by arrogant persons upon laborers, the poor, and upon negroes, and the like;

All these—All the meanness and agony without end, I sitting, look out upon,

See, hear, and am silent.

Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass

uma paixão recente... mas forte!

Hammock - Breathturn from David Altobelli on Vimeo.

people

 - Daddy, why are they so bad to each other?

 - Probably because they've realized that they will never be as good as they wanted to... 

see the stars

amiga:

We need real dark to se the stars...

But when things are really dark, as dark as they can get, you see so much more, so many wonderful things...

Somethimes, old son, things are gonna get darker for you than they do for the rest of us...

But you've got to... You've got to see those moments as something special. because they're showing you things... A way of looking at the world that no one else will ever, ever understand.

JCM

Às vezes apetece-me citar um dos personagens da fabulosa Comédia de Deus, de João César Monteiro:
"Quando eu subi aos céus, disse para todos os mortais: 

 fodam-se vocês agora que a mim já não me fodem mais!"

o perdão

"Perdoa aos teu inimigos.

Nada os aborrece mais."

Oscar Wilde

desejo(s)

"Porque continuas a querer tanto?... Sabes que é exactamente isso que te faz infeliz..."

arte

"Mentir, contar belas coisas não verdadeiras, é o próprio objectivo da arte."  

Oscar Wilde

Ólafur Arnalds

O que eu tenho gostado destes senhores...

mono

quotes

"I wanted to burn the Louvre. I'd do the Elgin Marbles with a sledgehammer and wipe my ass with the Mona Lisa."

Tyler Durden

beautiful

"it's hard not feeling afraid pa"

no tomorow - de|vision

What if everything that you believe in isn't true
What if the face you see in the mirror isn't you

What if the blood we shed was wasted for a long lost cause
What if you found out you'd sold your soul at a great loss
What of you woke up from what you thought was an endless dream
What if the world we know was but a pale reflection of what's real

What would you do
What would you do
If there was no tomorrow
What would you do
What would you do
If there was no time to borrow
What would you do
What would you do
If there was no tomorrow
What would you do
What would you do
Would there still be a need to move on

Pack a whole life into a day
Only living is for free
Let's get lost where nothing matters
Where the sky meets the sea

Hold me up to the light
Show me things on-one else can see
Let's get lost where nothing matters
Where the sky meets the sea

everyday

postpone
and postpone
and postpone 

those little pleasures.

they always seem so small,

they always seem so certain...

and we feel so secure,

so settled...

but that day.

that day...

the day when we realize

they're gone for good.

then all those little pleasures become so, so important

 

longe

e se nos afastarmos tanto que

apenas restem lágrimas?

time to drop some tears

Anathema - Electricity

Seems like you never really knew me
seems like you never understood me
seems like you never really knew how to feel
but electricity it drew you near to me
what you needed was to be rid of me

there were times you really made me smile
and there were times you really made me cry
and there were times i never really knew how to feel
but electricity it drew you near to me
what you needed was to be rid of me
and the fear made you so unsure of me
what you needed was to be rid of me.

but electricity it drew you near to me
what you needed was to be rid of me
and the fear made you so unsure of me
what you needed was to be rid of me.

life

"life is too short to waste time dancing with fat women"

evolução

Nunca fui de sentir orgulho no meu país...

Nunca sequer me senti muito identificado com esta terra.

Hoje sinto-me um pouco mais perto. Deu-se um passo!

(a respeito do casamento entre pessoas do mesmo género)